I know that I haven't updated in weeks. I am sincerely sorry and hope you, dear readers, will forgive me. In becoming the woman I am meant to be, I have changed my mind about something important and wished to devote myself to processing it. I realize this is mysterious. Again, I apologize.
I am sure I will write about that later, but for now, I want this beloved blog of mine to capture something else, someone rather. This journal that just so happens to be public at the moment is important to me and I would regret not documenting this brief yet major part of my life in a blog post.
If you know me through this blog or in real life, then you are well aware that I want to move (from Maryland) to Philadelphia. As a result, I respectfully declined local date offers. However, I agreed to go on a first date during the summer, with E. Our subsequent dating was quite a distraction from actively pursuing my plans. Since I prefer to keep so many of the details of the relationship between the two of us, I will refrain from elaborating here on this social media platform. What's important is that I fell in love with him and consequently, took Philly completely off the table. Love can come when you least expect it. It certainly came up unexpectedly and at an inopportune moment for me. Unfortunately, it happened to end last weekend. (And you shouldn't hate him.)
I am heartbroken. Sad. I miss him terribly already. Please do not worry though as I am functional. Plus, I will definitely return to being happy and fabulous, but I just require time first. Time alone. I am off from work tomorrow (instead of my usual Monday) and... need it.
As they say, it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I simply have not been in love often so far in my life. It's truly amazing to experience that. Although difficult for me now, I will always be grateful.
He's wonderful. ...which is a statement I am used to gushing to friends when catching up. E is adventurous, intelligent, affectionate, passionate, gentlemanly and overall, a good man. Tall, dark and handsome too. He also has an accent. Most importantly, he adored me. ...no wonder I fell in love!
I will always cherish so many of our truly beautiful moments together throughout our four months of dating.
I need some time to grieve my devastating loss before deciding about continuing with my plans for my life. In addition, I am inspired to blog, but ask for even more patience at the moment. Please stay tuned. Thank you.