My car keeps conking out over the past month or so, even though I only received the car as a gift in October and have since put $1500 into it just to make it go, not even to make me comfortable. ..and it still doesn't go. I refuse to put any more money into it. It's so bad that I haven't even been driving it lately. I've driven my dad's Ford Escape on and off for the past week and a half. It feels so huge to me, but it's nice to have A/C and a passenger side door that opens from the outside. Anyway, I want to give my car up and move to a city, where I can walk more and take advantage of mass transit. I would love to never drive, walk to a cafe for a cappuccino or to a bar for happy hour, always have something to do.
I have a particular city in mind. The idea of living in Philadelphia again thrills me. I loved living there for nine months four and a half years ago. It's odd that I am a traveler and fall in love with places, but dislike my current town, which happens to be my hometown. Its character simply does not match mine. It is very family-oriented and I am not. I also follow bloggers daily, including expats who love their new home and relish sharing all about it. I want something like what they have. I'd probably be a better blogger. Additionally, post-breakup, I am not tied to the area by anyone. While I do have family and friends I love here, I do not have a significant other securing me here.
Rodin's The Thinker
@ The Rodin Museum in Philadelphia
Since my recent car repairs have wiped out my savings for my 30th birthday trip to Paris, I am unsure if I save all the money I make from working every Sunday and perhaps another night of the week at my part-time job from July up until next April, it would still get me there... I want to land a (full-time) job with a greater income or have cheaper rent and living expenses, even if that means sharing a two bedroom with a roommate, to save some real money. I am still set on toasting a new decade in the City of Light.
Working two jobs seven days a week so often is tiring. Frequently, you just go through the motions. ...even me, who tries so hard to truly experience life, appreciating the little things and living life consciously. When asked how I am, (when not in my bubbly small talk) I hate answering "busy" or "same old, same old." I want to make the most of my life. I want to revel in the fact that I just savored gelato while strolling through Rittenhouse Square [in Philadelphia] in the sunshine for example. Living in my hometown isn't living my best life.
I've been trying to land an entry-level study abroad job for the past four and a half years and haven't succeeded yet. I always figured I'd turn my life upside down when I landed that dream job. ...but I can change my life without that particular plan. Since Plan A isn't working out, I need a Plan B, to change my tactics. I want to be very happy.
With my car trouble, not even liking my town, breakup, frustration with my temporary life seeming permanent, jeopardizing my Paris trip and my life seeming blah over the last few days all make me ready for big change. This propels me into action.
So very action-oriented, I am back to my old tricks, I applied to three jobs out-of-state yesterday. One was one of my study abroad jobs I apply for regularly. This one was in Arlington, VA. Conversely, the other two were leasing jobs in Philly. Those applications are out of the ordinary for me. One of the two I am excited about- a leasing manager position which is a promotion for me in a very nice high-rise right in the middle of downtown (which is called Center City) Philadelphia. I probably cannot even afford to live there, but it's a nice idea. My current company does have its headquarters just outside Philadelphia but they lack a property within the city limits. If they buy a property there, I will be first in line to transfer.
Please wish me luck in making this change actually happen.